Resolutions for 2009

Here I am, sitting in front of my PC, Baskin Robbins ice-cream tub in one hand and the other trying to complete this entry. As I am preparing to welcome in the New Year tonight, many thoughts rekindle itself in my mind. So fast has 2008 passed, in a few hours it'll be 2009. A new dawn, a fresh start, new challenges coming our way.

Now, I don't have New Year resolutions. Don't look forward to see me setting targets to achieve and making the effort to be sugar, spice and everything nice. A very long time ago, I decided to turn over a new leaf and I created a list in conjunction with the celebrated event. Topping the list was to be less critical and more civil. My list was rendered as obsolete and useless in less than 2hrs of it being created. I tried very hard to control my sharp tongue but in the end, I decided to give in. The person at the receiving end was amused to learn that I ACTUALLY considered at all to make an effort to be mild-mannered. So, I conceded, New Year resolutions are definitely not for someone like me.


Though, I'd like to toast to believing for greater things in 2009.


To my precious Saviour and King,
Words just fail me when I think back of Your wondrous love and amazing grace for me. I will never cease to serve and worship you. I am yours forevermore.

To my family,
Thanks for being such a wonderful family. Daddy and Mummy, thank you for bearing with me through this entire year. It has been a crazy year but if I have to go through it any time else in life, there is no one else I'd rather go through it with than the both of you. Despite our differences, I know that your love for me is the only thing that is on your mind. I love you.

To both my uncles ( affectionately known as Tua Koo and Say Koo ),
There is nothing that pleases this heart more than to see the both of you rekindle your relationship. I have been so blessed and loved by the both of you. You are so special to me.

To my beautiful gals ( Annie, Debra, Deriss, Rachel, Ruth and Kelfy ),
Our friendship is to me, like a scored gold mine. I believe that I have found my treasure in each of you. I adore you.

For Youth Impact members reading this,
No matter what happens next year, together we will be able to get through it. Look to the One above who loves you so much that your names are inscribed in the palms of His hands. I am believing for 'immeasurably more than I could ever ask or imagine'...

Maybe, just maybe, will I start writing down a list of resolutions again, to see how long I can hold on to it... *chuckles*

Hanging out

I have been asked before if I was anti-social due to my lack of hanging out with huge groups of people. I have been accused of being arrogant, old-fashioned and the whole pertaining attributes to highlight one point: that I am a loner.

I am not even batting an eyelid or by any chance bothered.

But the thing is this, I much prefer to hang out with people whom I know, trust (This is something else I have yet to blog about. I do not trust people easily.) and feel comfortable with. What is the point of going out in a large group but only, actually being able to carry off a decent conversation with only one or two of the entire lot? I do not see the point to it. I also absolutely detest taking pictures, making tons of online albums, posting the pictures and bragging about it. What is the purpose of it? (That question was rhetorical.)

The whole idea I am trying to sell right here is these moments are private and personal.

Pictures do capture the moment, yes, but in the end, all we recall is the rawness during the time spent. Honest-to-God moments where you are not afraid to let loose, be silly and laugh so much, your jaw will feel stiff and your stomach, ached.

And did I also mention that I love shopping alone? When you see me alone shopping, don't for a moment, feel sorry for me. I seriously adore being alone at times, to not be bothered and be left that way.

I am my own person, and proud of it.

I'm BACK!

I have missed blogging terribly. My computer have decided to go on a vacation because she's ill and now that she has obtained a full recovery, I can ride on her trustee back again.

In a nutshell of the events happening in the past week, Christmas has come and gone. It has been rather uneventful for me this year. In fact, it has been rather dull this year due to the poor economy condition, I guess.

Secondly, my new room is done! After so many years of waiting, it is done. It's lovely and cosy and I am spending as much time as possible in my very own space. I find lighting up aromatherapy candles and bunking in my bed with a good read very therapeutic.

I'm gonna leave it for now and go snuggle up in my bed...

Sincerest apologies

I am very sorry for not updating my blog through a span of one week already. I've been extremely busy, studying mostly and now that that ordeal is over, I am finally free and liberated, and getting a much needed rest.

I promise to post up a new entry as soon as possible.

Till then, Happy Christmas and cheerio...

New Addition

"Praise the Lord! Baby Christie was born yesterday afternoon at 4.35pm. She's healthy and she looks a lot like Tristan".
This text message just came through 15minutes ago from my good friend, Yean May.

Yean May,

I want you to know I am ecstatic for you and your family. I am certain everyone in the Teng and Khoo family is celebrating this joyous occasion. Congratulations on your safe delivery. The new baby will mean less sleep and more of running around the house, I am sure you will cope just fine. Eventhough we’re miles apart and I would like nothing more than to be there to share this moment with you, know that my prayers and best wishes are for you. I cannot wait for the day when I am able to meet the new addition myself. Till then, do take good care of yourself and send my love to Hooi Jin and the boys..

While...

waiting,

Life's Lesson ( 1 )

In retrospect, experiences in life are the greatest teachers. They teach us in many ways that you and I could never imagine but it made us grow up and be a better person. I received a lesson which has taught me in a way that I did not expect but nonetheless, I have learnt.

Because of my kind and generous personality ( Don’t you snigger *snarls* ), I will not hesitate to share with you what I have learnt.

1. NEVER Compromise.
I am saying it like I mean it. I made the mistake compromising when what I should have done was stand up for what I believe in even if it meant being ostracised from the rest and insisting my way through. We commit the blunder of compromising just because we want to remain in the good graces of the other party. Well, here it is, Don’t. Especially when it involves your religion. Which brings me to:-

2. Be respectful, religion wise
As in respect and be sensitive to an individual’s religion. It is something that we have grown up with, put our faith in and hold on to. It is VERY disrespectful if you know that Lucifer is Satan’s name ( for Christians ) and you still INSIST on using it. To put it plainly, it just pisses me off.

3. Always discuss.
Unless you are working on an assigned project alone, always discuss the tiniest detail with your team. No matter how insignificant you may find it, do it because they are your team members. They deserve just that much of respect from you.

4. Do not take people for granted.
If you are still caught in the Dark Ages, I will enlighten you. People have feelings. For goodness sakes’, we are human beings. So unless you start treating us like one, you are just in for a very difficult ride and I for one, will not make it any easier or more comfortable. You can bet your last penny on it.

5. Money shows you a person’s true colours.
In my case, it is RM24.00. Due to this, I am able to see your real character and true person. It has only cost me RM24.00. I consider this money well spent. Know that the next time I collaborate or be in the same team as you is when God make pigs fly.

I will admit I was extremely worked up about the incident. I was literally blowing off steam from my ears. But then again, who am I kidding? I am comparing and bringing myself to understand the brain of someone who adores a man who undergoes a surgery to remove his floating ribs in order to conduct (.... ). No wonder...

P/S: I was asked if I had ever considered being a lawyer. The particular person mentioned my forte in arguing with sense and facts. I did consider, seriously. But my detest for History and memorizing cut short my dream. Also, I dislike condoning to a specific set of rules, regulations and laws. They are wasted on me and I do not regard them highly. So, the feeling is mutual.

PP/S: Miss Mi-chelle, Thank you. You are an amazing person first, a wonderful lecturer second. Thanks for the hug.

Growl, Growl

^ That is ravioli. It is a form of pasta usually filled with meat, vegetable or cheese ( Think currypuff, without the curry filling ). When fried, esp the one with cheese filling, take a bite and you're in haven.

I am smacking the biggest pout across my face and I am sulking, like a little 5 year-old. That is because I am having a growling tummy and this Chatty Lass does not like to be deprived of food.

I had my fair share of noodles in soup for dinner but I guess my metabolism is working overtime to digest the food I ingested at top speed. And it does not help at all that Dad is watching Iron Chef at this very moment. I can hear the narrator mentioning, "Ravioli, Caviar, Salmon..." and I think I slobbered on my keyboard.

I am going to ransack the kitchen cabinets and scour the house for some esculent...

Andrew Johnston

This left me seriously teary-eyed. I'm shallow that way. I cry at the drop of a hat. In a way, I really felt for the kid because of the rough journey he went through but as soon as he opened his mouth, he blew me away. I had goosebumps all over me.

In my opinion, a person who has gone through bobbing up and down the waves of life are that of a better artist. They know what it is like to be hurt and because of that, some of the most poignantly-written songs are birthed.

This is one of those videos worth waiting for..